Well, friends and acquaintances I'll be going into surgery tomorrow, so may not be around for a while. A week ago I had a CT scan and it wasn't kidney stones!! but they did find a rather large mass, 27cm(about 10 and a bit inches?) to be precise. They believe it's a teratoma and all indications are that it is benign. Now if you want to see freaky just wiki 'teratoma'!! At least it's something freakishly interesting. It's built up to contain about 5ltrs of fluid as well as other assorted flotsam and jetsam, hence the constant pain and my appearance of being about 8 months pregnant at the moment.

The upside is that after surgery I will have lost about 2 dress sizes and the morphine has been keeping the edge off the pain. It did cross my mind to request they put it in a preserving jar (well bucket) thinking it may be an interesting subject to paint in the future, but I really couldn't handle the odd looks from people who will be cutting me open.

The down side is the fear of the unknown (I have never been to hospital before, but to have my baby)and being concerned about how my baby, mind you he is 16, will cope. He has been my rock, learnt to cook, been cleaning and watching me like a hawk. He is where I find my grace.

Anyway,take care all. See you again soon with more paintings when I can.

Love, Strength ,Grace and Wisdom my friends
xxxxxx